Thursday, March 29, 2012

20 random things

So I found a Pinterest pin and this lady was writing several blogs about very many random items to write out. I lost the pin, the website is lost in the history of my IPhone but here is the first and maybe I will make my own list of 30 blog items.  More to come!

1. I read magazines from the back to the front cover.
2. I brush my teeth and walk around doing minor stuff, put away laundry, get lunch ready-whatever needs done.
3. I despise public restrooms, avoid at all costs.
4. There are times I am very OCD and now as a married woman I hold my tongue as there are 2 adults in the house- he sees the mess he makes.
5. I am beyond in love and so glad that I gave in and have been led into a healthy marriage.
6. I do not wear t-shirts or tennis shoes in public. I better be going or coming from a workout.
7. I despise running but I do it anyway. Plus the after affect and time to not think is helpful.
8. I can memorize lyrics like no other. Just drive with me and you will see, for some reason I pick it up very easily.
9. I prefer to buy my books, I have not had a library card since high school.  This will have to change soon as I will have more time to read and do not always want to spend the money on books.
10. I am a calendar person, it's in my phone or on our paper calendar or we are not there.
11. I like to take charge- I get my families holidays and other things organized. This year I am trying to step back.  Although this may be my calling in life, to be in charge.  Something about having control and knowing that it is up to me to get it all figured out is empowering.
12. I self diagnose, of course its either nothing or worse than I think.  It's allergies but ends up being a cold, feels like its going to work its way out of my body and its there much longer.
13. I try to eat very healthy and make time to exercise but it's a rare moment that I will pass up on dessert.
14. The slightest things can make me cry. Mostly hearing songs on the radio that speak to me or about an ill child gets the tears flowing. I am blaming this on marriage and the anticipation of having a family.
15. I am bilingual when I pray and bring up words randomly when I speak to Darren and my family.  Our child WILL be bilingual even if Darren cannot understand- this is a great gift to have.
16. I am NOT pregnant but I think a lot about having a child, Darren and I say how awesome they will be.  21 year old me is going to find out what we may have missed out on.
17. Making decisions based on 3 options is what I prefer. Darren has even caught on to this, restaurant decisions and activities are slightly easier this way.
18. I do not like to skip meals and prefer to snack throughout the day.  Do not let my physical image fool you.
19.  I have the need to be early to appointments, gatherings, etc.  This desire probably stems from many different past events.
20. My love language to others is giving while I perceive time with others as my receiving love language.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Homebody

I am now coming home from a work trip, one I did not want to go on and had been dreading its arrival since I knew I would be going.  I did not want to  be away from home and away from Darren.  Our calendar has been filling up and free weekends at home together are scarce.  I kept thinking about how we are still in our first year of marriage and I was losing out on time together. I knew that the weekend would be claimed by housework and making meals but it was also some us time and even a few naps.  Then I just realized that I might be a homebody.  I prefer to be at home, our home, to sleep in the bed we share, have everything I need at my disposal and to coexist even with our separate activities.  I like being in a home that is being transformed for us, that makes me feel beyond comfortable.  

I went back to the bend recently and was asked by family if we would be staying in town for the night, only replying that this would be a day trip for us.  I have fought so hard refusing to make Indy my home and this construction mess a place to live in.  But the time came and I realized that I have a home it has become my home, as much as I have found refuge in my parents home it is no longer mine.  It can no longer protect me from growing up.  It is a place to visit, but for me, it currently is not a place for me/us to stay.  It does not hold the comfort it used to, while the great memories are still with me it is not my home.  
I prefer our bed, my pillow, our bathroom, my towels.  I rather be at home than out on the town, I find serenity in keeping up the house.  And mostly I enjoy being with Darren, I rather travel with him and share a bed with him.  There is comfort and warmth when we share a bed, it reminds me how grateful I am for the blessings that we have been given, the love and hope.  I would still like our house to be anywhere else that is 80plus degrees on a daily basis but this will more than do until then-my home is with Darren. As is our vows, "let my arms be your shelter, and my heart your home"- and it is.