just pure happiness

When I think of pure happiness I think...

Inperfect beauty, joyful sounds, hot sand beneath my feet, family, a childs enthusiasm, adventures, delicious foods, growing up, accomplishments, future hopes and dreams, living in the present, laughing until you cry, acting like a child.  I think about great conversations, catching up with an old friend to phone dates, just calling to say hello or because I saw or heard something that made me think of them.  I think about the chaos that made me who I am and the bright sunshine that is part of me.  Pure happiness is what I will let it be and it can consume me if I just breathe.  So I say BREAThe to myself, enjoy the moment, laugh off the ridiculousness that occurred.  Getting to know the new people in my life, that makes me happy. And so much more

She Finally Arrived!

So I know I am late on this one as I have been plenty busy with school and work.  But my niece Tegan Brileigh arrived on Monday.  And of course she would after I drove up 3 hours, could not get a good nights sleep when I finally got to my Folks place and then the 3 hour drive back.  I like to say that she just came Fashionably late, 4 days after we were expecting her.  Either way I am excited to meet here when I am able to make my next trip up North.  I will have to get some awesome photos of her and as of right now I know very little because mom knows very little for some unknown reason.

Another thing I have been thinking about quite a bit, traveling.  I am so excited for what is to come for Darren and I in regards to our trips planned starting next month.  Last week in March we are heading to Florida, while Darren is driving I will be flying out in the evening after my class on a Saturday.  I am super excited as we enjoyed ourselves last year.  I am ready for warmer weather, the track, Dave's Dockside Grill, the beach, time off from work and just relaxing.  Plus some shopping at the Boutiques I have found in the St. Pete area that we will be staying in.  Its a trip we are both looking forward to.

still to come

Tegan is still to arrive.  She may be just a bit comfortable in the womb and while Luz was in the hospital for about 24hrs and having strong contractions they just did not get too close and she did not dialate further than 3cm but was 90% efaced.  It was odd, my sister Luz is walking with her IV and talking to me about movies and such then it comes, every lap around the Birthing floor but at different points.  She cannot tolerate pain in any way but she did a great job of breathing through each contraction and her husband Tim was right there with her to talk to her and hold on to her.  I know some about childbirthing thanks to Human Sexuality course in college and from hearing stories.  PS I have no desire to see it in person or be in that position, it kinda scares me. I also had some pics of my sisters walking around the hospital but managed to erase them as I was trying to clear my memory card. BOO on me!  But they released her from the hospital this afternoon to go home and try to move things along, which being at home doing things may be better for her than laying around and trying to walk and being connected to machines.  She will go back to see the Dr tomorrow and see what the plan is, I vote it will be Wednesday before she has Tegan but she said no way.  She cannot wait that much longer, and will suggest the Dr induce her labor.  So the wait is still on.

Still Waiting...

As of right now, 8:30 pm on Wednesday the 10th of February, Tegan has not made her arrival.
I am still ill, although what started as a sinus infection seems to have morphed into congestion in my head and even after I think I cannot blow my nose any more I somehow need to 10 seconds later.
And right now I am procrastinating, I am supposed to be studying for my test on Saturday for Anatomy & Physiology. 
But also ready for my new home, wherever it is.  And Florida, 44 more days until my flight.
I am listening to Dashboard Confessional, a mix Cd thanks to my Love Malissa.  Its great.  And right now I do not know all of the lyrics so it makes it easier to concentrate on my work rather than get caught up in singing.  Ps Malissa is great at making CDs but even more she is just awesome.  This is not me smooching or sucking up, but genuinely speaking of my best friend.
Also when ordering items on Wal-Mart site to store, the items may make it to your store of choice quite a bit sooner than they initially anticipate.  I ordered that baby bath for Tegan on Sunday and Received an e-mail today that it is already at the Michigan City store waiting for pick.  As they had initially stated that it would be there next weekend, the 21st.  So thats nice.
ALso have been thinking about some festivities for the new place.  An Indy 500 Pre-party is in the talks, as well as a girls weekend.  So hopefully I can make those plans and get ready for some new great memories.

Christmas 2008

One of the Twins with another Cousin, Cecilia

the countdown begins

So, this countdown is for my niece, she is supposed to arrive by the 11th of this week.  And it would be grand.  I am quite excited and most of it may be with the"hype" of a first, biological, niece and the first grandchild in our family.  She could bring/add some much needed baby love as we have yet to experience it as a family but always from the extensions of our families.  If that made any sense.  Tegan is sure to be a hit with all of us.  Edina, the baby girl of our family, has made a dress, bloomers and hat for Tegan, she is pretty good with the sewing machine.  While Eze seems to be unphased by the baby or being an unlce from what I can tell when speaking on the phone with him, he is too busy with playing Wii games and anything else that is not "boring" to him. 
Today I actually, finally, purchased a baby bath for Tegan that Luz wanted from her registry and did not receive at her baby shower.  She seems pretty excited about it and I am sure she will get plenty of use from it.  I also made her a few trinkets for Teegan's room, although I am unsure on how they are displayed I am sure it looks great.  I am looking forward to seeing my sister grow into her mother role and already can imagine Tegan growing up.  And hopefully I will have her at our house for sleepovers every once in awhile cause it would be fun and 3 hours apart is quite a bit, just do not want to see her grow up between visits but be a part of the experience. 
My parents know me better, kids are not in my near future.  One, I am missing the whole married part and am in no rush for that either.  And I am glad that they have no desire to push me on those subjects.  Atleast with my little cousins, Darren's nephews and Tegan we can play and have fun then go home to some quiet relaxation.  I will admit that I do enjoy spending large amounts of time with my siblings, but they are a little easier to get ready and go but not as easy to keep entertained and they can talk back, mostly Eze as he can think he is king of the house, not my house.   I like going to the zoo, ballparks, beach and so forth but the amazment that a child sees and enjoys from those trips is what makes it worth the effort. 
As Malissa and I say and know, we are not kid people, although she is maybe an extreme or 2 higher than I. She too will be in aunt later this year but her brother lives in another state so that would make it easier for her.  I will be looking forward to seeing her interact with a baby. 
Also, a biG THank You to our friends and family, we have only 1 wedding this summer, late August to be exact.  And its in Texas, so if I have the opportunity to fly out there I will be on my own but it depends on funds and if its not the same weekend we are supposed to be in California.  Either way, its going to be a less busy summer than the last. 
PS 47 days for flight check-in, Florida I am so ready.

A winding week

Its been a wild week, slow but busy and I have of course have become ill with a sinus infection.  I have been studying for my first big test and tonight was productive and even more so if you include the constant nose wiping.  And even though I am using Kleenex with lotion my nose has become raw and painful.  I guess I just do not get it, I have never had so many minor health issues than I have this past Fall into winter.  I believe this is the 3rd or 4th time I have had issues and of course do not have the means of seeing a Dr.  It is what it is and I hope I do not have to worry so much about the runny, tickle in the back of the throat and congestion problems during my test on Saturday. 
We (Darren & I) are hopefully going to be seeing his nephews this Saturday.  I am looking forward to it, as the boys bring some great entertainment and are fun to be child like and play around.  The older one is a Wii kind of laying across his mom on the recliner backwards and still hits a great shot in golf, with the wave of his arm.
I spoke to my mother yesterday during lunch, we talked about the usual.  One main subject was my sister Luz, she is getting quite close to her due date and well, I am pretty excited to see her become a full fledged mother and meet Miss Tegan.  My sister has "dropped," and about a week to go.  Although I may not be able to be at the birth, which I am not too sure I can handle it I will be there as soon I can and am glad and blessed that everything thus far has gone great and they are both healthy.
I enjoy the small things, the small talk and yesterday Darren surprised me but then again I think its just him at his finest.  We opted to grab something quick for dinner as I ended up at work slightly longer than was expected.  We decided on Pam's Pit Stop Pizza, its close to home and just as close to the track.  I drove he ordered and then we headed over to fill up Ruby and he offered to pump then we came home and had dinner.  And he made me tea 2 nights in a row now.  Its just the small things. 
There is supposed to be quite a bit of snow coming down between tonight through tomorrow then the evening.  Ps I am not a fan of snow, sure its pretty when its coming down but if its snowing that means its pretty cold out and I am not friends with cold weather or being cold.  Yes, I usually walk around the apartment with sweats and a blanket wrapped around me.  I wear socks to sleep in because I cannot stand the feeling of my cold feet touching another part of me.  I wear the same wool sweater over my thin sweater over my dress shirt to work because its also usually cold there.  Just tell it to go away, My friend Amy will take it and I am sure quite a few other people, just not me here in Indy.  I want to go to work tomorrow, I have quite a few things to work on and I want to see my roomie for Sushi tomorrow night and run errands.  Just do not let it snow until late Friday night, It can however cancel school on Saturday morning so that I can study more as I am stressed.  That it can cure ever so slightly.