I keep thinking how blessed I am, we are. Waiting around today for my parents and younger siblings to arrive. I am looking around our home, the saw dust, pantry items in the living room, papers semi organized on our kitchen table, tools everywhere. But still a blessing. All the things I never thought I wanted I have and I am so grateful. I am grateful for a wonderful growing marriage, a beautiful home that Darren has torn inside out to make ours, the mess- because it means we are living our lives and doing something for ourselves and our future. It's been a long time since I have noticed any change in myself and my outlook on life but this difference that I feel on the inside and hope I project in my words and actions feels amazing. I cannot wait to see and experience what lies in front of us and how a year from now, how much more changed and great life will continue to become. I hope my patience continues to grow, my gratitude expressed, and ready for the adventure in front of us. I am ready to take on the challenges and make some of the best memories and learning experiences.
No need to wait for a special occasion, I don't want to miss out on today. Life is too short, use your good dishes every night.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
184 days
Or six months, either way you look at it we have made it half way through our first year of marriage. Life has changed slightly, our emotions and thoughts have evolved to think of the other in all aspects of life. We talk about all sorts of things, are learning how to laugh at ourselves loudly, finding out other ways to meet each others needs and I am working on giving in his love language.
This is the most fun. We have vacationed, celebrated, I have cried and come back with renewed strength and a greater outlook on ways to work on making this relationship better. Even in the midst of some misunderstandings, some struggle, and fear.
I always believed that I would be in a monogomous relationship, that I would share my life with one man, my dreams, hopes and adventures but never did I see this. This love, it's been more than just giving in to marriage. It has been giving of myself and each other to be there and walk through the journey that God has for us.
I am most excited to see how many more changes are to come in the next 6 months. To see our lives evolve and for the unexpected that will ground us further in our lives.
This is the most fun. We have vacationed, celebrated, I have cried and come back with renewed strength and a greater outlook on ways to work on making this relationship better. Even in the midst of some misunderstandings, some struggle, and fear.
I always believed that I would be in a monogomous relationship, that I would share my life with one man, my dreams, hopes and adventures but never did I see this. This love, it's been more than just giving in to marriage. It has been giving of myself and each other to be there and walk through the journey that God has for us.
I am most excited to see how many more changes are to come in the next 6 months. To see our lives evolve and for the unexpected that will ground us further in our lives.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Thinking
I have been thinking about a lot of things, shocker, I know. I think I have an addiction, to pinterest. Thanks Amy! I have been finding new recipes, and so much more. Like collecting thoughts on a babies room, a baby that does not exist, finding quotes that would help as a child or as a parent, cool gadgets that might make things easier, and some seriously stylish duds for a little one. It's exciting and scary looking through baby items.
Another scary thing, winter has not truly arrived. No big snow and the temperature has been mostly reasonable. I am not a cold weather person, I rather live in the season of summer all year long. I am not ready for what might come. But I am ready for spring break with Darren.
I am still working on updating my wardrobe. After successfully removing clothing from my closet that I have not worn or does not fit appropriately. Although my clothes bin/workout and t-shirts and dresser still need to be evaluated for further removal of items I can live without so that I can continue to purchase everyday, chic, fitted pieces that display me and my wiser self. I am realizing that I love my barely boot cut jeans from Express, they fit great, durable and versatile. I am still working on becoming more of a fan of my trouser jeans- work in progress as I am figuring out how I like them with with my shoe collection. My shoes have to be cleaned out too, I did throw away a pair of my favorite flats from Banana Republic, it was sad but necessary. I need shoes with arch support, but still stylish.
More to come on whats in store.
Another scary thing, winter has not truly arrived. No big snow and the temperature has been mostly reasonable. I am not a cold weather person, I rather live in the season of summer all year long. I am not ready for what might come. But I am ready for spring break with Darren.
I am still working on updating my wardrobe. After successfully removing clothing from my closet that I have not worn or does not fit appropriately. Although my clothes bin/workout and t-shirts and dresser still need to be evaluated for further removal of items I can live without so that I can continue to purchase everyday, chic, fitted pieces that display me and my wiser self. I am realizing that I love my barely boot cut jeans from Express, they fit great, durable and versatile. I am still working on becoming more of a fan of my trouser jeans- work in progress as I am figuring out how I like them with with my shoe collection. My shoes have to be cleaned out too, I did throw away a pair of my favorite flats from Banana Republic, it was sad but necessary. I need shoes with arch support, but still stylish.
More to come on whats in store.
Monday, January 9, 2012
Some reflection
Right now I feel...
Elated in how much a couple days since beginning the new year had helped me refocus on the important parts of life and living it justly.
What I am grateful for in 2011:
* Family: being a daughter, sister, aunt, wife and the expansion of my family with my in-laws(a huge blessing)
* Taking the steps in marriage, I would do it all over again! And maybe Darren will jump to answer before the pastor finishes his sentence-great Ice breaker
* The ability to maintain friendships even with distance, made new friendships and working on moving forward from others
* Being able to travel, Florida, Canada, cruise- it was all so great.
* Making ladies night each month- catching up and being in great company
* Having a job
* Seeing our home transform and the ability to upgrade to our liking
What I learned in 2011?
* That I can plan anything
* I have a higher stress level than I knew but learned the importance of leaving it at home and talking things out at home
* I am growing still and this is a great thing
* Over thinking gets me nowhere
* I have such a great support team in family and friends
* Getting my way no longer exists(unless I am with my dad), relationships are about 2people and compromise
In 2012 I choose to feel:
Joyful, glad, and positive even in the midst of stress and personal struggle.
What am I joyfully anticipating in 2012?
* the finishing touches on our home and some re-organization
* new adventures
* slumber parties
* planning for the future
* seeing my family and friends more and often
* an outstanding, challenging, rewarding career
* weekend getaways
* hosting get togethers at our home
* becoming a better couponer
* and Darren to finally agree to let me wax his chest, long shot but still fun and funny
I found this reflect on 2011 create 2012 format through pinterest link
Elated in how much a couple days since beginning the new year had helped me refocus on the important parts of life and living it justly.
What I am grateful for in 2011:
* Family: being a daughter, sister, aunt, wife and the expansion of my family with my in-laws(a huge blessing)
* Taking the steps in marriage, I would do it all over again! And maybe Darren will jump to answer before the pastor finishes his sentence-great Ice breaker
* The ability to maintain friendships even with distance, made new friendships and working on moving forward from others
* Being able to travel, Florida, Canada, cruise- it was all so great.
* Making ladies night each month- catching up and being in great company
* Having a job
* Seeing our home transform and the ability to upgrade to our liking
What I learned in 2011?
* That I can plan anything
* I have a higher stress level than I knew but learned the importance of leaving it at home and talking things out at home
* I am growing still and this is a great thing
* Over thinking gets me nowhere
* I have such a great support team in family and friends
* Getting my way no longer exists(unless I am with my dad), relationships are about 2people and compromise
In 2012 I choose to feel:
Joyful, glad, and positive even in the midst of stress and personal struggle.
What am I joyfully anticipating in 2012?
* the finishing touches on our home and some re-organization
* new adventures
* slumber parties
* planning for the future
* seeing my family and friends more and often
* an outstanding, challenging, rewarding career
* weekend getaways
* hosting get togethers at our home
* becoming a better couponer
* and Darren to finally agree to let me wax his chest, long shot but still fun and funny
I found this reflect on 2011 create 2012 format through pinterest link
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2012
I am unsure what this year will bring. I am uncertain what emotional rollercoaster I will be riding. I hope to take control of who I am, that I will be a better me, I will continue to work towards my goal of a career, making my friendships a priority while spending more time with my family. I want to lead a less stress life.
Today I began cleaning out my closet, removing items that do not fit or I have not worn in a long time in order to upgrade my wardrobe. I want to remove the unnecessary and be more organized.
I want to celebrate life, myself my family and friends. Last night was yet another reason why I miss being around people. Life is supposed to be great and enjoyed with others.
I anticipate that my hard work will show up in the happiness I feel.
Today I began cleaning out my closet, removing items that do not fit or I have not worn in a long time in order to upgrade my wardrobe. I want to remove the unnecessary and be more organized.
I want to celebrate life, myself my family and friends. Last night was yet another reason why I miss being around people. Life is supposed to be great and enjoyed with others.
I anticipate that my hard work will show up in the happiness I feel.
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