I am realizing how hard it is to grow up. It took about 5 attempts, calling my dad for his information, to figure out how to renew my license plates and still it could only be mailed to my parents house. I have been living in the area for 3 years next month and have yet to update my license, I do not even know where the BmV is and do not care to visit- I still have another year before my license expires and I will drag it out as long as possible.

I am finding that I have to make decisions as an adult. I have to think about all my responsibilities and priorities. I do not want to be a grown up but I know I cannot live off of my parents when I need something. I missed my nieces first birthday because I knew I had to think about the long run. I know that living here is hard and growing up is harder.

It's a shower

So I have decided after many different thoughts and conversations that I should break down and have a bridal shower. I enjoyed myself when I was helping with friends events and now it can be my turn to enjoy my friends. I got some details together with Malissa this weekend and also for the wedding.  So we will see how it all turns out. 

We attempted to purchase invites while we were out running errands but even at the outlets their selection was rather limited.  I did look at actual wedding invitations and right now I am struggling- my latest stress has been finding the right invitation and going against what I wanted.  I originally wanted to design the invitations but have also found some great sets out there with response cards and envelopes which can in turn be a less expensive route.  I saw Darren's invite list and his friends list, in my opinion, is out of control, which equals more invites to buy.  Being home today due to the weather I continued my search through wedding paper divas and its scary to see the price which does not include response cards and envelopes.  Even if the price goes down with the more you buy it can still get out of control.  So I have no idea in which direction I am going in just yet but I do know that I have to get the envelopes to my mom's friend for all the penmanship, I rather not have them typed and even less want to share my not so good handwriting on all the envelopes.  I was hoping to have these to her on my next visit home which is 2 weeks from this Saturday otherwise I will have to mail them which is just as feasible.
I expect to see a pimple pop in the next couple of days due to this stress and add maybe a pound with all the junk I will consume today for having to stay at home rather than be at work.  So don't stare.

Also I finally took a photo of Kyle, this past weekend which makes I believe for my first photo not on my phone for the year, this is sad.